when did your heart go missin'?

how does it feel to know
you're everything I need
the butterflies in my stomach,
they could bring me to my knees.

don't you just love the feeling of my fingertips circling your lips.

we pencil-sketch our previous life
so we can contrast it to the
Technicolor of the moment.

falling stars exploding on the sea, god it's so beautiful.

The most randomly mixed group of us met up today & chilled @ the park by OCAD.
Derek + I crashed @ Mandah's that night.

Biting the flesh from the finger, y'know I just can't help myself.

I'm gunna miss everyone so much,
especially these two, haha.
They're pretty much the most important people in my life atm.
I'm pretty excited for Italy now,
but at the same time I really hate having to leave them,
and I know I'll be thinking about coming back to chill with them the whole trip.
♥


P.S. Sunny blew up an orange condom, but it popped.
I never knew they could go that big.
haha

You won't be leaving my arms, honey.

Yesterday we went to the beaches to chill,
'cos I'm leaving tonight.
The water was so colddd,
Mandah + I actually swam out, but Zhen + Sunny can't swim, ahha.
Then we just chilled on the rocks abit,
and we left after.
mandah + I went to FMP to see Zohan, but after the first like 10 min,
we left to see Hancock 'cos it was so had.
Adam Sandler, you have failed me.

P.S. I blacked out my ass 'cos it looks like I have a major wedgie.
I need to get new bottoms.
I think I'll just swim with shorts on from now on.

crashing into reality.

Yesterday, I chilled dtown with mandah, savvy + zach, kayla, josh, evan.
we ran into robin + julian + sarah on queen's.
I got shorts from.. well I forgot where.
+ 3 shirt sfrom Black Market.
then I went out for dinner with my mummy,
and we saw Wall-E.
it was so fuckin adorable. (':
uhmm, and I got a new camera, 10.2 MP. (Y)
Today we had a barbeque.

i know all your favorite spots, and tonight we will connect the dots.

Today was my second day of the prep.
Tomorrow's my photoshoot,
apparantly my photographer does all the shoots for Aveda Canada.
+ a couple pretty important Aveda people have been working with me these past couple days.
I'm not nervous yet atm,
but I know I definitely will be tomorrow.
Good luck to me,
hope I don't fuck up too bad.
(:

In other news,
I got back the roll of film that was developed,
and I dropped off the 3 rolls from my Holga.
I'm excited to see the negatives!

all those nights we danced by the moonlight.

Today I had the first part of my photoshoot prep, the cut.
He took foreverr, he was cutting like every hair, haha.
But it turned out pretty cool, I didn't know what to think of it at first,
but I'm growing to love it.
+ at least it isn't as boring as I was expecting.
Once we're done the photoshoot, if they don't need my hair anymore,
I'm gunna ask them to shave steps in the side aswell.
I went shopping with my mummy after for a bunch of stuff for the summer,
I'm pretty much set now, with tanks, shirts, shorts, skinnies, purse, jacket, sunglasses.

that's what i'm waiting for, darling.

Me and my mummy + daddy chilled @ High Park today for Canada Day.
I got to try out my Holga + the Nikon,
and it was beautiful out.
I looked like shit today though, but it's not like there was anyone I knew there to see.
(:

i'll be the one to keep you, i'll keep you at your best.

I got my tongue pierced on Saturday,
right before Kareem's birthday show.
It was $50, and it's healing pretty nicely.
It didn't bleed at all,
and it didn't swell too much.

for everything under the sun, I owe you one.

Chillen dtown today was so fun.
I love my friends, I'm really dreading leaving for a whole month.
Josh, Kayla, Alex, Mandah, Baraq.
♥

drive my soul.

Pride Parade with Sunny was amazing.
speaking of which, this picture makes me extremely happy.
as does youtube videos of emo boys making out.
Haha apparantly Sunny had flowers for me as a surprise.
But she forgot them.
(:

CAMERAS!

so I got my Holga + Polaroid cameras recently,
and I just got the films for them.
+ I also got a bunch of photography books for some inspiration today!
so hopefully in the next few days I'll be taking a whole bunch of pictures.
My weekend's gunna be amazing aswell,
especially with Zach's show + the Pride Parade and such.

also,
I've been itching to do this project where I take a picture of this tree in a field on a farm by my house for 365 days,
and I'll compile it all in the end and see what's changed.
I'll be doing the same thing with myself, to see what's changed over the year.
+ I'll be uploading a picture a day, just of something interesting in my day and such.
oh and also, I'll be in Italy from July 9 - 30,
so I guess I cant start until I get back. (N)
Ofcourse no longer having a digital camera is a major setback, haha.
so I'm not sure how I'm gunna go about doing any of this atm..
but i'll figure out a way fersure,
I'm really excited for these projects! (:

hello.

first off, here's a few links to the main sites I have:

MySpace,
VF,
DeviantART,
LJ.

I'll try to be posting as much as I can,
but I'll likely be on LJ more than here;
I post on that at least once a day.
and yeah I don't exactly know what I'm doing with two journals,
but I'm gunna be posting different stuff on each one.
My LJ is pretty much all writing,
more personal + detailed.
and because it's so personal, alot of my posts there are friends only,
I accept pretty much all adds, so make an LJ + add away! (:
and this one is gunna be with as little text as possible,
more pictures + public.